Intentions Clear

Great Song that I can not stop listening too. Thanks Umphrey's Mcgee

You got my number, you can make the call
Until then I wont bother you at all
I'd let you walk all over me again
But a smile is something I could not pretend
And every time I felt like this was wrong
You made me feel like I should tag along
Once or twice it would be nice to see you
Even if I don't believe you

Even if I don't believe the life you lead
There will always be a time where you would need
Someone, something
Someone, not me

There'll be no doubt, intentions clear
We'll hide our thoughts behind the mirror
There'll be no wrong, there'll be no right
But this could be a lonely night
With wintered steps our footprints fall
But I can't feel a thing at all

I know it's wrong to make assumptions
But without them I'm left with nothing
I've always focused on the fractions
To slowly understand what happened
I know you've got a lot of questions
But the answers always aren't the best thing
Once or twice it would be nice to see you
Even if it's bad for me to

So you'll be an Austrian Nobleman...

Had an interesting night last night and today as well. Some good convos with some really good people ;). About that it seems like when I don't try and put no pressure on myself or how my day will go things usually work out pretty well and much better than expected. I have learned in the past few months that things don't really matter all of the little stuff that you worry about and stress over aren't worth stressing about because they just distract you from the important things in life. In the end I just want to be happy and make those around me happy. I don't have to make a billion dollars a year and own a mansion on the beach front. (Although it would be nice) I just need a roof over my head, a steady job, people around who love me, and the ability to experience the coolest and most interesting things I can find. On second thought the roof over my head isn't ideal a passport full of stamps from all the places I visited would be much more kosher. Shoot for the stars, take risks, work hard, play hard, do everything you want to and with no regrets at all because you only get one shot at this thing called life and waisting it worrying is surely no way to be. Keep your head up kid things will work out for you in all aspects of your life and someday you'll be famous and Ill be able to say hey I know them! and they are fucking badass....

Today seems like a good day to burn a bridge or two

The fact is, that to do anything in the world worth doing, we must not stand back shivering and thinking of the cold and danger, but jump in and scramble through as well as we can.

Robert Cushing

The painting is by Michael O'Toole Liked the colors and the warmth I felt from it when I looked at it.

Its been a long couple of weeks. Lot of things have happened.

1. School has kept me busy as hell
2. Applied and interviewed for a job on campus next year
3. Looking for a place to live
4. Flunk Day happened
5. Party buses are the greatest thing ever created
   
6. Found out I am going to be an uncle (Excited/Nervous at the same time)
7. Went to the 311 concert yesterday and they rocked my socks off
8. Started watching Interstella 5555 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQ5XOwiryv0
9. Happy Holidays
10. Motion City Soundtrack in Iowa City friday free at IMU Main Lounge
    

No idea is original there's nothing new under the sun.

The past few weeks have been kinda surreal I'm coming to the end of my fourth year in school most of my friends are graduating while I am staying here for another year. They are gonna go off get jobs and begin their lives. While I will still be living in the not so real world in college. There are still parties to go to people to hang out with and say goodbye to, plans for the summer to be made. On top of all of this I really just want to get out of this place and go somewhere new and different where I don't know anyone or anything and start over. I wanna see the world and meet all the crazy cool people that are in it, not sit in a classroom and listen to another boring monotonous lecture by some professor who is way to smart for his/her own good. Or be forced to have the same conversations with people who are just like everyone else yet claim to be completely unique. I have news for you! Your just like everybody else! Get over it and start living in reality like the rest of us.

But really please someone just give me an excuse to leave this place and go do something cool cause I can't handle this much longer.

Stealing Happy Hours....

I feel like the only way to describe the past few weeks is a list:

1. Jesse is probably one of the funniest and coolest people I know despite what she may tell you.
2. Photo booth is my new favorite computer application
3. Life seems much better and a lot less stress and drama filled without certain people in it and I couldn't be happier about it.
4. St. Louis is a bad ass city and I want to go back soon and visit my girls.
5. 311 is by far one of the best bands ever.
6. Bon-Iver and The Weepies Nuff said.
7. School suck as always and I can't wait till summer although I am said to see so many of my friends go.
8. Money is more important than you think so try and make as much as you possibly can.
9. Perfection is unattainable so don't expect it but strive for it anyways
10. Honesty is always the best policy if you can't accept the truth or speak it yourself than you don't deserve to have any friends
11. Top songs right now:

• Kanye West- Good Morning
• The Weepies- World Spins Madly On
  
• Eve-6-- Good Lives
• Belle & Sebastian- White Collar Boy
• Murs- Can It be
• Kid Cudi- Day and Night

12. Took the pic while on the train heading into St. Louis.

Do what you LOVE and FUCK the rest...

So I met this really cool guy last night that made me realize how important doing what you love in life is. He was a former Coe student, in which I actually did have a class with but completely forgot that he was in. He dropped out and started doing Web-design for a company and also graphic design as a personal business. Funny thing is that he just designed and created the new Coe website. He also has his own place and just started a record label that is starting to take-off, he makes all his own music and has essentially a recording studio in his apartment. He may not be making millions of dollars a year but he is damn happy with what he is doing and is gonna continue doing it despite what people think or say. He is one of the most confident and down to earth people I have ever met. He knows what he wants and how to get it and will do whatever he can to get it.

This is exactly how I want to live my life and am going to start striving to achieve. I didn't used to in the past and am going to start to now stop caring about what other people think, cause I have realized in the end the only thing that matters is how you feel about yourself and the things you have in life. No one else can live your life for you and so no one else should be able to control how you live and think. Make yourself happy and others will follow your lead.

One is Silver and the Other is Gold

So I surely haven't written for a while and I'm sorry but I really haven't had anything creative hit me in the past week or so. However I have been sorta busy dealing with female drama and visiting with old friends. First to the drama part although most women say they hate drama and try to avoid it at all costs this is total B.S. women love drama they thrive in it. I don't think that I could go one day without having to hear some girl whine and cry about something stupid in unimportant in the first place. It just really cracks me up but frustrates and annoys hell outta me at the same time. If you don't want drama in your life then don't get upset and emotional about every little thing that goes on in your life. If someone forgot to invite you to a party big Whoop! If a few of your crackers go missing SO WHAT! Please please wake up and realize there are so many more important things out there than the things that you are stressing about. Now on to the old friends part: I saw some fraternity alumni on Saturday that I haven't seen in quite a while and it was really great to see them. They are all a few years older then me so I don't get to hang out with them much but when I do Its always a great time. Secondly, I got to see me some Ro and that was a real treat, I haven't seen her in almost a year and she just makes me smile. I went to Hamburger Mary's and Basix both GLBT friendly bars. While at Basix they had a drag show which was actually pretty cool and fun. I met the girl of my dreams who is a friend of Ro's but unfortunately she is into women and I will never have the privilege of dating. I also got hit on basically but two gay men. It was pretty funny and made me feel good that I am seen as attractive by both sexes haha. But anyways its always great to see old friends and whenever you get the chance to do that DO IT! I am going to St. Louis for a few days for Spring Break to visit my great friend Ro again I am really excited cause I have never actually seen St. Louis and I gets me some more Ro time.